Yeah, just heard something that makes my heart hurt. I feel like such an idiot right now........
I really shouldn't feel bad, but I wanna cry. Just frustrated tears at my own stupidity. But nothing will come out.
Why is it that when people feel sad their chests hurt? It feels tight, like someone stuck a hand in there and twisted all my insides.
I need to forget about some things. A lot of things.......
Something's wrong with me, there's some wire that doesn't quite connect. It keeps me from getting what I want. And instead it keeps playing these feelings and memories on endless repeat.
My stomach feels bad. Just bad. The thought of food makes it churn but I won't throw up either. At least that would be a distraction.
I have to say this to someone, something, because evening knowing almost no one will read this, Or care, someone will know how I feel. I will have gotten these bad feelings off my chest. Loosened some of the tightness. Dulled the stupidity I feel by putting it into words. And keep the tears that are hiding right behind my eyes from actually coming out. Or maybe letting them flow free.
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